2011

As the year draws to an end, I can't help but feel melancholy about it tonight. I feel like I left my best year behind. The year where "I grew up". The year where I fell, picked myself up and I learned. The year where I lose some friends and made more friends. The year where big steps were taken.

Leaving FF in April when I was high rolling, moving into ProFit, then leaving ProFit to work for myself living up to my own expectations, renting someone else's gym to having my own gym. What a year.

Started with an average family, went through a rough patch, helping mother take a big step, making plans for her future, teaching her to regain her confidence to leave her own life to her own expectations. I became a mum. She became my daughter. What a year.

Started the year with a relationship, ended halfway, didn't need any emotional baggage, and picking up halfway even with unfinished business and unknown endings, don't know where it will lead to but at least its going with my flow. Never have a I done something with no end in sight, no goals to view, this is a first. What a year.

My biggest achievement is probably to indirectly help someone gain so much confidence in herself and gaining so much respect from her peers just by being her friend and her trainer. She used to shy away from the expats fron her lack of confidence. She used to sit quietly in the corner doing her own stuff. Now she's approaching people, she's talking more and gain so much respect that I'm truly happy for her. Its a satisfaction that money cannot buy.

I love training people. I love kettlebells I love CrossFit. I love training and I have my own style of teaching. Some may like it some may not. I cannot please everyone. I have finally come to the point "this is me, take it or leave it" I enjoy training and if the feeling is not mutual between my client and me, I rather not train that person. Let's not spoil training for me.

2011 have taught me so much. I don't hope for an easier 2012, I pray for a stronger mind, healthier body and deeper wisdom to overcome the coming years.

I don't expect things to get easier from now on. Rentals have to be paid, salary has to be made, training has to be done, I need to keep moving forward, look ahead, far far ahead, think long term. Have to keep finding ways to make life better for the mother and the sisters, have to keep finding ways to keep my passion burning, have to find a way to be balanced spiritually, mentally, physically, emotionally and socially.

I don't know how I'll do it. But I'll do it. Nothing will get in my way.
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